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a sense of surety
i’ve been feeling a huge sense of loss and i’m not sure how to navigate it. there are so many different types of grief, and i still feel that i’m mourning the old parts of myself, which i sometimes do feel are the better parts of myself. my grandma passed away a year ago, she…
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Hold your own, and go your own way
It is strangely easier to be more open and vulnerable now, because hardly anyone reads blogs anyway… especially mine. I hardly read my own blog. It’s definitely interesting to remember that this blog holds my thoughts from 2013, nearly a decade ago. It’s a long time to be documenting. It’s been nine years of preserving…
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reclaiming my softness
hi there, i’m back for just a little while. things have changed, as they are wont to do. i’ve grown a year older, the world seems to have changed, and sometimes there is a compulsion to delve into the strange recesses of my past for an arbitrary semblance of comfort – in a familiar that…
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This Would Have Been Still Okay If
So it begins It was the night before my twenty second birthday, an occasion I’ve quickly learned not to care for. But thank you for spending my birthday with me at one of the most pretentious outdoor bars I’ve been to — or rather, a parking space masquerading as one. We got gin and tonics…
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this could be a prelude to the rest of my life
Busan, Korea (2017) this is a belated realisation that writing is somewhat my lost and found (plug: ampersand journal, issue 2, soon) – there’s a tendency to write for myself (i.e. in the absence of an audience) only when i’m swimming in the ocean of my thoughts, but there’s always the grateful knowledge that i’ll have…
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a 2017 bildungsroman
I wrote the following entry back in August 2017 on another platform, and I think it deserves a place here. / unedited / a look back on 2014 I arbitrarily took out my CJC 2014 planner and read through it… and wow. So much nostalgia and memories and a v timely reminder of how far…
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2018 in a thought
I’ve been getting substantially less views since I’ve removed this link from my Instagram (and added Ampersand Journal instead – sneaky plug hehe but it’s something I’m working on and I’m quite proud of it, more details to come!) so I think I’m gonna try to be more honest and open on this space –…
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here & now
how do we let ourselves carry light in our arms, ushering in a quiet nuance where life as we know it is turned on its head? how do we carry on, letting ourselves be brave when all we want to do is hide in a crevice where absolutely nothing changes, where solace is the only…
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sthlm, sweden
I’ve been in Stockholm for about 1.5 months now, and I gotta say that it’s truly one of the most beautiful cities I’ve ever been to. We’ll see if this sentiment changes as I trotter my way across Europe for the next year, but as of yet I’m still utterly in love and amazed by…
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(in your hands)
in a bid to make sure i manage to snag a few relatively alright photos when i go to stockholm, as well as the need to be endlessly preoccupied by something mildly creative… i got myself a secondhand camera! i’ve wanted one for quite awhile because i’ve mostly been relying on my iPhone the past…